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Pissed Off For Reasons Unknown [03 Sep 2003|06:31am]

I am here, I need a walk, I need a cigarette, and I hate. I am pissed at myself for walking away. I should have never......I will never aging give it up like that. My soul is my soul, and I hate it that someone else owns it. I am upset at the fact that I cannot do anything about a situation. I am tired, and upset about how this all comes out. I know how it ends, and its ending soon. I will no longer be of use, and I swear the first person to get into my face will see how much anger this little guy can produce. I'm fucking tired of it all. I hate to say this, but I have started to give it all up. Where am I going? I see a long hard life of nothing ahead. Fuck with me and its all on from there. Take my advise this time, I refuses to backdown, and I will not be ignored.
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[20 Jun 2003|11:57pm]

[ mood | bitchy ]

men drive me to smoke.


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gott ist grausam ~ sodom und gomorra [19 Apr 2003|02:49am]

[ mood | pessimistic ]

wow. some people are even more vile, more deplorable, more unforgivably dishonourable than i had thought.

i see hunger in those beady, hateful eyes and know that i'm the next target.

this target has teeth.
and claws.
and friends.

and by fuck i'm not afraid to use them.

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it's my lj and i'll bitch if i want to, bitch if i want to, bitch if i want to [13 Apr 2003|01:44am]

[ mood | pissed off ]

ceol has my goddamned lj bookmarked so i know he's going to read this once i publish it. but you know what? i don't give a flying wombat's shit-covered asshole.

i'm beginning to see why nat and my mother are so cynical about their mates being on their computers all the time. i was on ceol's computer and went to the history box to find something i'd accessed but couldn't find again, and what do i see? porn, porn, porn. looked at yesterday: porn, porn, porn. all through last week: porn, porn, porn, motherfucking porn. and he wonders why he doesn't get laid! he's too busy looking at facial cumshots on his fucking computer instead of spending time with me! he asked me if i was bored with him. no, i'm not, but i really wonder if he could honestly say the same about me.

and then i realise that he wouldn't know honesty if it hauled off and slugged him. i know this because it has, literally, in the form of ME.

for a few brief moments i contemplated proposing to him yesterday, on the anniversary of our handfasting. i slapped myself for it. so what did we do i all day? i passed out in the bedroom and he ran off to fuck knows where ~ probably to mooch cash off of his parents ~ and spent the rest of his time on the computer. this is a large part of the reason i am not going to marry that man.

and then there's lisa. good fucking gods, but she's a diva indeed. i don't even know where to start with that, so i don't think i really will go into details. suffice to say she's pissed off a number of people and i was on the verge of bitching her out myself. that's pretty goddamned bad considering how calm i usually am while running a game. i'm just gonna leave it there, 'cause i'm pissed off enough as it is and i don't want to spoil my clove buzz.

that said, it's time for me to end this entry.

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KILL THEM ALL!! [20 Mar 2003|02:19pm]

[ mood | bitchy ]

I am so for this war. It is so time someone did something about this bastard!!!! Fucking awesome!!!! All I can say though, is that Baby Bush had better do what his father didn't .. KILL THE ASSHOLE!!!


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I FUCKING HATE HER [15 Mar 2003|10:45am]

[ mood | enraged ]

How much can one person be expected to take? How much can one family be put through because of things that are not in their control?

I'm so sick and tired of Mom's bitch ass boss. This bitch has put Mom through so much HELL for the last 5 years alone that it isn't even funny anymore.

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I guess I needed to rant...because I really don't want to bring anyone down about all this....I just needed to get it off my chest......

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take it as a threat or better yet as a promise [11 Mar 2003|11:30am]

[ mood | cynical ]

death comes for all of us eventually, but he sure does get a big fucking kick out of dicking some of us around for a while first.

i'm one of those playthings.

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JABBERWOCKY [10 Mar 2003|05:54am]

[ mood | bitchy ]


Lewis Carroll

(from Through the Looking-Glass and What Alice Found There, 1872)

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought --
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And, has thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!'
He chortled in his joy.

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

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Wanted to Say "HI" [08 Mar 2003|03:32pm]

[ mood | bored ]

Hey Nat...just wanted to say "HI" and that I'm on here now

Trust me, with the way things have been going for me, I'll be posting here instead of my normal LJ when I get pissed and all that good/not-good stuff!!

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"Cover her face; Mine eyes dazzle; She died young." [04 Mar 2003|06:41pm]

[ mood | hungry ]

My head hurts. My heart hurts. And (though I know it is full) my soul feels tapped out.

Drained ... Dripping!!

My dancing with the devil has made me grow so old.

Do you ever just feel like everything you touch turn to ash ... like all of your gold has melted and leaked out through the cracks.

I just want to cry sometimes. I just want to curl up into his arms and pretend the world isn't true.

My fears grow with everyday that we don't have jobs. With every fight.

My parental-units are not fucking helping. Saying that he is empting me.

Emptiness is in the eye of the beholder.

This situation is making my soul bleed. Don't they understand what they are doing TO ME!!!!

They need to learn! To have me in their lives they will have to accept him ... or lose me forever ...

"What do you do when they only person who can make you stop crying is the one who made you cry?"


Being in love is never like the movies ....


"The worms go in, the worms go out, the worms play pinochle on you your snout .... And then the pus comes oozing out."
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Welcome to my corner of the asylum! [04 Mar 2003|12:22am]

[ mood | anxious ]

And it starts. I have formed a band of people who are just as crazy as me.

Enjoy the show.


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